states

of mind

sometimes i wonder how on earth can a person's mood drift so wildly as mine does. and that happens: looking perspectively at a historical line of events, day to day and intraday itself. at times my workmates would wonder if i had taken sugar overdoses given my state of complete euphoria, maybe immediately followed by acute muteness. i am certain it is not psychiatric -- i DID look into it. sometimes it can be blamed on the annoying miracle of birth possibilities. yerch. i'll try and eliminate that one through some implants that seem to give you peace of mind and lower back excruciating pains for some 3 to 5 years. other times, not so much state of the body but state of the soul. i must admit that i do wrap myself into and around myself too much at times. but then... it does yield some good results - such as at least questioning the whole shebang. i think i had something else in mind as a point for this post, but it's too late now and i am sleepy.

the mood'll get better, i'm sure. it always does.

c